This is me coping with failure

I am so Fuckin pissed off right now. I had my road test today and I ::gasp:: failed. I was nervous as hell, I hadn't eaten anything before and the administrator was a jackass.

Why was he a jackass? Well before the test even started, the only words he ever said to me were scornful. "Why are you here so early? Are you def?" Right then and there I wanted to smack him upside his head.

He was a fat, ugly white man with gray nails and the seat belt hardly fit. He obviously hadn't been laid in forever. I think that every administrator should be required to have a friendly disposition. If you look like an asshole, you get booted.

Sure, I got too close to the cone and tapped it a bit, it's not like i killed someone or hit another car. Is tapping a cone really grounds for failure. It was so early on in the test too; everyone should be allowed one extra chance. I know I'm a good driver and it really sucks that I needed a white man's approval today.

Normally, I'm not racist, but today, I'm going to make an exception. I keep getting screwed over by white men and I think that means I need to stay away from them.
Mike- white, x-boyf, gay
Tom- gay, choir director, flake
Driving guy- fat, ugly and and a jackass

I do feel really bad for the driving guy though. I may have failed the road test, but I still get another chance. He, on the other hand, will never get another chance because once your dead, your dead and you can't go back and try to be a better person. I'm not trying to curse anyone, but I'm just saying. We all know where bad people go.

I think I'm allowed to be bitter right now. God doesn't let me get excited about things. I was excited about getting my license. Everytime I'm confident about something, something always comes back to bite me in the ass.
Wesleyan
Joe
San Francisco

That is why I'm normally depressed and negative about stuff. Once I show a sign of happiness, that is when all hell breaks loose.

I'm bitter dammit!!!!