I'm beginning to adjust to living here in Easton, PA all by myself with the pretty often weekend visits from my parents. I found a part time job at a day care center and I find myself falling in love with a lot of the children. I'm wondering what sort of future I'm going to have once I'm completely settled here. Will I be working at the day care center forever? Is this what I am meant to do along with my creative endeavors? I just want to make sure that I will be able to do the things that I really want to do with my life. I don't want to be stuck in a position where I won't be able to get out and go in a new direction.
My parents are constantly taking it upon themselves to to find more stable jobs for me. I know that they are stressing themselves out and they refuse to listen when I say that I have things under control. I appreciate their efforts and their concern, but they really have to let me do things for myself. I also have to realize that I'm not a kid anymore and I need to stop relying on others to help me out all of the time. I truly need to practice what I preach.
I do have some more good news, the first being me with a job; I have a car and I didn't even have to buy it. My uncle and his family were generous enough to let me use it until it completely collapsed. It's about 15 years old and it is sturdy, so I believe that I have a couple of years with that car until I can gather up enough money for a new one. I am so happy that I have people in my life that would do something like that for me. It makes me regret thinking that I was ever alone and unloved, though there are days when I still feel that way.
I'm starting to have some friends here which is nice. I was a friand that I would be stuck in this house forever just going back and forth from home to work. Well, alright, it's just one new friend, but still, it's something. I'm just sorry that now she is going to have to put up with my flighty, flakey, self-righteous yet self- depricating personality. I'm not that awful, but I have my moments.